Thursday, August 30, 2012
I know you all probably think I'm nuts for freaking out so badly, but I've come to realize through my therapy for post-partum and prenatal depression that a large part of the reason for it is how upset/angry I am over Ewan's birth and how that's come into play now since I've been thrown into the same situation all over again without really having a chance to come to terms with Ewan's birth.
This is a huge relief for me since I've been waking up at night freaking out over it. Maybe now I'll be able to get some decent sleep, well as much as I can being almost 8 months pregnant!
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Friday, August 24, 2012
Alan and I went for my pre-admission appointment and hospital tour this week. Definitely brings home how soon this little girl will be arriving...in a short seven weeks!
I'm really glad this hospital is more up to date with breastfeeding and skin to skin, etc. However, there were several things that have me a little freaked out...
1. Being told that not only do I have to wear the compression cuffs on my legs that inflate and deflate, but I have to wear compression hose underneath them. Umm...I have a hard enough time handling the cuffs, the thought of wearing the hose underneath has set me into a panic. I don't wear socks, hose, stockings, anything restricive like that. I will flip out if they try to force me to wear them. I don't care that they're to prevent blood clots...I'm more than willing to risk it over having a panic attack in the hospital...which leads me to #2
2. I was told that since my c-section is scheduled in the afternoon, I won't be allowed up until the following morning. Wrong! I was up and moving 10 hours after my son was born and I will be again, regardless of whether I have the ok from my ob/nurse. If I have to, I will yank the catheter out and get up myself. Which leads me back to #1....I have a hard time as it is with the thought of not being able to move for 10 hours with that blood clot crap on. Make it 18 and I might have a breakdown.
3. The surgical stay rooms are TINY!! There's barely enough room for Alan much less any visitors. The bed is super narrow as well and there's no place for Alan to sleep other than a loveseat. Also, who puts a recliner in a room with a woman who just had major abdominal surgery?! Since, you know, it will be so easy to rock my little girl, much less get out of it having just been butchered. I will definitely be missing the rocking chair that I had at Crozer.
4. She mentioned something about being hooked up to patient controlled iv pain meds. Again, no. I would much rather take percocet thanks. If I'm hooked up to that crap, then that means more time unable to move and wear that compression crap...see #1 and #2.
I intend to speak to my ob about my concerns at my appointment next week, but my biggest fear is that it will do absolutely no good and I will be steamrollered by the hospital staff with everything I don't want, just like Ewan's birth. I don't do well with being hooked up to things, being told when I can move and when and what I can eat. To me being in the hospital for any reason is like prison. I will freely admit that I am a nurse's worst nightmare, so look out!
Friday, August 17, 2012
Yeah. She's just fine. According to the u/s, she's just over 3 lbs and everything is measuring right on. So, if she comes early, it will be on her own!
Oh! I also got to see her face in 4D :-) And she looks a lot like Ewan when he was a newborn. I never got a 4D u/s with Ewan so I was really excited. I don't have access to a scanner at the moment, but I will post pics when I get a chance.
Friday, August 3, 2012
So for the past few days, I've had a lump in my throat and my gag reflex has been up. Yesterday the lump moved down to between my chest and throat and it hurt to swallow and I've been burping like crazy. I thought I was getting whatever Ewan currently has at the moment. Rhat is, until I was drinking water and it burned going down. All the sudden it clicked that I've been experiencing reflux and all the fun that comes with it. I have never had this before and it is definitely NOT fun! I really hope it goes away or she drops soon because this is awful and I really don't want to deal with it for 10 more weeks. No wonder babies scream, I definitely want to!
Thursday, August 2, 2012
I haven't posted much about my pregnancy on here, mainly because I was keeping mum because of the rubella exposure and some other drama. However, since I posted the only baby bump piv I have and probably will have taken this pregnancy, I thought I should post an update.
I will be 29 weeks tomorrow and holy cow has it gone by quickly! I know it will be October before I know it and it seems like we still have so much more to do to finish the house and get Baby Girl's room ready for her. Alan keeps telling me not to freak out, that everything will be done with time to spare, but if you know me even a little...yeah much easier said than done!
I had an appointment with my obgyn today and she said everything looks good, except that Baby Girl is measuring 33 weeks and since she's been ahead two appointments in a row, I have a growth u/s at my next appointment. Oh no! Another chance to see my daughter! My sister-in-law was joking around last night that I'm going to be bringing her to my sprinkle in September, but I am not worried in the least about her being "big." Third trimester growth u/s's are notoriously inaccurate and while it may say she's already 6lbs, I highly doubt it. There's no way I would allow her to be born before 37 weeks. I don't want to risk her going to the NICU and me stuck in recovery from a c-section and unable to move for 8-10 hours and unable to see her more than I have to. And yes that does happen. It happened to a good friend of mine actually. Her daughter was born at 36 weeks and wound up in the NICU with her unable to see her for several days because she was recovering and her baby was transferred to a different hospital! But, off I go on a tangent...
Another thing we did at my appointment was schedule my c-section. I am not thrilled at all about having a repeat, but I am trying to make the best of it. At least this time my baby girl will get to stay with me in recovery as long as she's ok instead of me being in recovery for over two hours with my mom pissed off that I can't see and hold my baby...can you tell I'm still pissed off about Ewan's birth :-) But again, another tangent...
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
We had dinner plans with my friend Mary that evening, so we left not too long after my family got up there. It was great to see her and I'm glad I got to give her her shower gift since I won't be able to attend her baby shower. We share the same due date, so it was interesting to see how pregnancy fits each of us.
On Sunday we just hung out in the morning and then attempted to have a cookout, except that the propane tank was out of gas! So, we just broiled the burgers and hot dogs. We left in the early afternoon because we had to make a stop in New Haven for work before heading home...and that was definitely interesting! We were going to try to get to this house to photograph it but all the roads were closed. Alan got out to take a photo of the road closed sign while I turned the car around. Well, this guy came out of his house right as we were leaving...and he followed us to downtown Ft. Wayne! As we were driving, I told Alan that I thought the guy in the truck was following us and he thought I was nuts. Well, as we were entering downtown, the guy pulls up next to us and starts honking and motioning that I pull over. I was scared out of my wits! I wasn't going to pull over and just call the cops, but Alan finally got me to pull over and got out and talked to him. I had my phone out the entire time ready to call 911. Apparently the guy has had some break ins and wanted to know what we were doing. When we go out and survey for work, we get people asking us what we're doing all the time, but I've never had anyone chase us down before. That was nuts!
But, back to the fun part of the weekend...overall we had a good time, even though it was a whirlwind trip. I hope we're able to go over Labor Day when we'll get an extra day up there!
|Chillin on the deck|