I really, really REALLY miss the lake right now. This is the first summer that I won't be going up there at all. I don't know what it is about that place, tons of people have lake homes, not to mention we're so close to the ocean here, BUT that place is magical for me. I can recall playing in the rocks that used to line the shore when I was about 2 or 3 with my tugboat, "water skiing" with my mom and grandma in the water, riding around the lake with my uncle in the Mark Twain and later the Centurion and zipping around the lake on the jet ski with Jeshana and Angie. We used to spend all day out on that thing.
Angie's grandparents passed away and their house was sold, and Jeshana never comes up anymore, but still. I love that place. I love just sitting on the patio by the seawall with a book, I love taking walks down to the point and in the park to the inn. I love going to Satek Winery and getting my favorite wine of all time, 101 Lakes Red (not that I can drink it at the moment, but still).
My uncle is contemplating selling our place, and the thought that this might be the last summer makes me bawl. Alan and I are planning a trip to Indiana over Labor Day weekend, where we will spend a couple days up there...but it's not the same. I miss being able to go every weekend, or at the least, every other weekend. Last summer, I was there twice. I'm even contemplating going to my high school reunion, something I said I would never do because I hated high school so much, just so I can have a chance to spend a day at the lake.
I wish that we could just take a week to go and spend there, but I know that that will definitely NOT happen this year. I only have 4 days PTO left, after Florida and being so sick from this pregnancy. If I still worked at Target, I could just take time unpaid and go, even without Alan, but there's no way that'll happen here.
It's no secret that I hate being out here, so isolated from everyone and everything. This pregnancy has just brought out how homesick I really am and makes it even harder to hide.